Blocages malheureux

«La situation dont parle le poème est assez autobiographique, et j’ai choisi de l’écrire en raison de la nature complexe de la dynamique familiale, en particulier des relations mère-fille, souvent imprégnées d’histoires et de traumatismes émotionnels inconnus des générations qui suivent ou même aux personnes impliquées. Dans ce cas, il s’agissait de ma mère et de ma grand-mère maternelle, et je voulais que ce poème illustre la nature complexe de leur relation qui interdit tout étiquetage facile ou tout blâme. »

 

Son poème, lu sur le site Poem a day :

 

 

Fractured

 

Hali Sofala-Jones

My grandmother is only one day
into her infirmity and doped up
on Morphine. Her shoulder is immobile

beneath layers of plaster.
Her eighty-five-year-old frame droops
from the weight of it.

My mother confesses:
she cannot take care of her mother.
I am not she says a nursemaid.

My mother is angry. Angry
at my sister who didn’t give enough
support, angry at my grandmother

for shuffling her feet, angry even
at the dog that was tucked beneath
my grandmother’s arm

as they all three tried to squeeze
into the door of the vet’s office.
She calls me from the emergency room

to say that grandmother fractured her shoulder
in three places. She’s become an invalid
overnight, she says. My sister calls her cruel

for refusing to run the bathwater, refusing
to wash my grandmother’s naked body, for
not even considering renting

a wheelchair for her to move from place
to place. When grandmother whispers
that she is afraid to walk, my mother

tells her that there’s nothing wrong with
her legs, tells her she’ll have to go to a
nursing home if she won’t walk

to the bathroom: one piss in the bed is
understandable, two is teetering too
close to in-home care.

 

My sister does not understand that there
is too much to overcome between them—
always the memory of the black dress

grandmother refused to wear
on the day of her husband’s funeral—
the way she turned to my mother and said,

I am not in mourning.